Musing on art making and life and trying to make sense of it all.
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Can you see the angst? Nope...didn't think so!
Continuum 36x36 2008
My art mentor/coach always teases that even my "angry" or "angst filled" paintings end up looking "lovely". I am always drawn to the abstract expressionists that fill their work with lots of tension and emotion....but for me -( and I guess I do this in real life )- I feel the need to edit it out and "make-nice". My coach and I have had many lengthy discussions about this tendency with my work. Discussing this with him is much more fun (and way cheaper) than therapy- but it disturbs me. And the truth of the matter is that I have in fact worked through some serious emotions with my painting in the last several years.
So ...present day: I have had a really anxiety filled summer -but I've also been painting and painting and painting - I have done a lot of work! And yet what I see when I look at all of this new work is the same thing I always see. Everything is soft, subtle, not at all angry looking or angst riddled. No...they are peaceful, non-tension filled lovely little paintings. Even though I really, truly use painting as my therapy. Trust me, the anxiety is IN THERE. I guess no one can see it but me.... and if they really looked "pissed-off" or "tragic" or "angst-filled" would I even like them? So I often wonder ...How authentic is this work? Deep...right?
I am a creator of mixed media non-objective, abstract paintings, collages and drawings.
I also teach art to elementary and middle school students.
I'm a wife, mother of three teen-agers and co-own a restaurant with the hubby. Needless to say, there is never a dull moment.
I write about whatever is on my mind at the time...a lot about art... a little about other things. My blog is guaranteed to be free flowing and from the heart - also likely misspelled and grammatically incorrect most of the time!